It's been awhile I am not around.
And busy would be a lame excuse.
With facebook things handier,
do you think I should continue to write things here?

I wrote somewhere else anyway.
Leave me your email, should you want to follow.
Thanks for kind interest.
Warmest regards,

In Need of Laugh


"De mensen willen lachen. En hoe groter de miserie is in een land, hoe groter de nood aan humor."
De Vlaamse komiek Geert Hoste pakt opnieuw uit met zijn traditionele eindejaarsconference. "Geert Hoste houdt woord" is de titel.

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In search of The Best Times


I’ve settled down in many ways—when we get invitations to this club or this party, I pick and choose. The best times are the quiet times at home.
HUGH HEFNER, The 81-year-old master hedonist.

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Fool-proof Style-tricks

General fashion tips
- The first impression that you have of a man is his face, but there are a lot of factors that define an attractive person. I think that personality, education, and attitude are most important in the end. You can get bored by a pretty face.
- You’ve got to be honest about your body. Anyway, unless they’re groupies, girls like guys who look like they have more substance than style.
A man can wear elements from the runway—fur, moccasins, shorts—if he does it with confidence. If he is a funny person, he can wear fur. Why not? But a man who forces himself to try that is making a mistake.
- It’s a sign of insecurity if you’re overdressed.
The three biggest fashion mistakes are cheap suits, shoes, and shirts. Spend your money on something good.
- I don’t like it when men purposely dress incorrectly at a formal event. When it’s black tie, I dress black tie. But I give it my own personal twist.
- Listen to what other people are saying about the way you dress, because in the end, fashion is a way of communicating. When you get your message wrong, it’s good that the people around you let you know.
- But the biggest mistake a man can make when dressing is following other people’s advice. It’s up to him. Even if he ends up badly dressed, if he’s happy, it’s okay.
- I was brought up wearing preppy clothes and I always went back to them. Preppy is the easiest way to dress. When in doubt, wear a button-down shirt, a V-neck sweater, a blazer, and a pair of jeans—it’s foolproof.
Before leaving the house, take a look in the mirror. Make sure there’s no food in your teeth and your zipper is up. A lot of people don’t take the time to do that.

Comfort
- Usually we dress comfortably when we are at home, when we are in private. I don’t split those moments—it’s always about comfort.
- I don’t understand why everybody thinks that dressing casually is so much more comfortable. I’m as comfortable in a suit as I am in anything else.
- If you see something you like, it doesn’t matter whether it’s out of fashion. I’ve bought things when they were out of style and I was very proud to wear them. If you like foie gras, you wouldn’t not eat it because it’s out of fashion.
- Kids should be dressed as kids, not as little grown-ups.
It’s all about the silhouette in the end. I’m wearing a shorter, skinnier jacket these days. But if you like yourself to look nice and chunky, like a hamburger, perfect.
You shouldn’t have a completely vintage look. Fashion has to move forward. We can’t live in the past.

Suit
- Right now, the most fashion-forward suit is double-breasted. But this is not a suit for a man who’s heavy or short. Most guys look best in a two-button suit with a bit of definition in the waist.
- A nice suit is important, but a well-done jacket is the most essential part of a man’s wardrobe. A good fit in the shoulder is, to me, crucial.

Jeans
- It’s okay to wear jeans at the office. You can wear them with nobility. If you’re a junkie, you can wear a suit and you’ll still look like a junkie.
- I don’t like jeans—I love them. I like slim-cut jeans, and at the moment I like them dark and clean, like tailored trousers.
- You should have a wardrobe of jeans in different washes and fits—from the pair that’s so comfortable you could work out in them to the pair that you can wear with a tie and a sports jacket to dinner.

Hair
- I wear my hair short. Guys shouldn’t spend a lot of money on a haircut.
- Hair loss is a dilemma for a lot of men. But guys look better with a little hair. If you’re losing yours, keep it short, but don’t shave it all off. You have to have a beautifully shaped head to go shaved.

Facial Hair
- Some men look great unshaven; others just look like they forgot to shave. Beards and mustaches can be really distinctive if you go for an earthy, rock-and-roll look like the Kings of Leon or the Killers.
- Facial hair doesn’t work if a man takes himself too seriously. But on somebody lighthearted, who could take it or leave it, it’s cool—like Leo DiCaprio. I’ve personally never done the facial-hair thing.

Shoes
- I like high-quality, classic shoes like loafers or wing tips with a twist. What’s not good is anything trendy—pointy-toed, square-toed, toes that turn up, intentional scuffing, and anything that looks plastic.

Fragrance
- Scent is very important. Strong fragrances suit some men, while citrus types suit others.
- Smell is important. I love perfume, but the moment that you can smell it from far away, I don’t like it anymore. It has to be discreet.

Luxury
- True luxury is about the best of everything. Don’t cut back on the little things - great coffee, a good novel, a wonderful aftershave.
- I don’t see anything strange about a man going to a spa for a treatment. Personal hygiene is important. I like people to be clean.
- Don’t wear black underwear. Black is the absence of light, and hygienically it’s bad. White is the best.

Aging
- Honestly, I think if I, men get older and a little gray but really take care of themselves, they can still look good. They don’t need to have anything done. Some women need a little cutting, though.
- As men age, it’s more sensible to go for an elegant and understated look. But they have the advantage that they can do the rugged thing.

Packing Tips
My advice to men is to pack a capsule wardrobe: a few suits, a pair of casual trousers, and then tops and accessories for changes—ties, belts, watches, shoes.

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Papier



Harri was showing up last weekend, and its the first after their engagement. I sent some photos of their session from previous 'life' to support their contract. You know, I ridiculously forgot not send some. He is still as 'gek' as ever :) This next message will give an idea.
Hey P Angelica heeft over d fotos verteld, n ze was trouwens dolgelukkig. We kunnen meteen trouwen als ik Angelica heb gedumpt. En hoeveel was 't dat je me vr de papieren zou betalen? Kusjes zyn wel lekker mr daarmee kan je d huur niet betalen ... Werk dus hard zodat je myn liefde kan verdienen. Engeltje zal werken op za en myn ondergoed stryken op zo. K zal d echte liefde gaan zoeken v/d hoerenbuurt by 't noordstation. Nee, k zal gewoon niksen zoals altyd. Kus, Harri. (25.08.2007; 06.24.58)

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Een Ruim















This is me.
I think it's apparent that I need to rethink my life a little bit.
I can't help myself.
I... I like good food, ok?
And... good food is... hard for a rat to find!
Ratatouille (2007)

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Standing in Ruins (literally)


I was in Yogyakarta, staying in Dusun Village Inn, as an amateur photographer. Lucky me, I just do what I like to do, and it will always be (hopefully). I am happy, you are happy. Others, pardonez moi, I don't have time yet to consider. At least, not bothering other business.

I came to realize that I am standing in the middle of pieces of broken hearts. Hahaha disappointment is real, just as rumor has it! The lady next door was laughing knowing that some people trying the best to cope the rolling down snowball of unpredictable matters in smile. No no, they are not happy, but life is supposed to enjoy, i guess.

Sure do, I visited my mom. Listening to her, I remember it’s been quite so long for not having such quality time with. FYI, she is 76 yo. Right, It feels like I am a child just as those days.

Should there be a picture from my latest trip, then this one (left) could be the one. Wish you (yes, you all who are familiar with my cam!) were here with me.

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Bunga Terakhir

This vintage is so suddenly getting so catchy to me. It's actually ringin' a bell. Thanks to the request program on Happy People 109, gue bisa masang lagu ini. Definitely never regretting of the years I've passing thru with. It's been most memorable time of the year. Mona bilang, ini lagu garuk-garuk aspal. Jijik rasanya untuk mengakui, tau dong maksudnya, well it's over, and it' over, and it's over. Tapi ya mau gimana lagi, Bebi was brilliantly capturing the soul of those 'walking away drama'. melody-nya juga enaklah... Here is a helpful lyric to understand the song. If you read this, right, its certainly dedicated for you (you know who).

Kaulah yang pertama menjadi cinta
Tinggallah kenangan
Berakhir lewat bunga
Seluruh cintaku untuknya

Bunga terakhir kupersembahkan kepada yang terindah
Sebagai satu tanda cinta untuknya
Bunga terakhir menjadi satu kenangan yang tersimpan
Tak 'kan pernah hilang 'tuk selamanya

Betapa cinta ini sungguh berarti
Tetaplah terjaga
Selamat tinggal kasih
'Ku telah pergi selamanya

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Sindhen Shinatrya


Getting asleep on a classical Javanese melody? Could be. Brought by a sindhen, a female solo singer, accompanied by a traditional Javanese music group called gamelan. Not that kind of ‘noisy' up beat traditional sounds, its peaceful, and tranquil. Relaxing in a gloomy lounge for a quality evening, let off all your stress. Can you imagine? Hard to understand even for an ordinary Javanese, but if you do, every words she sang mainly giving a philosophic guidance on living a certain kind of life, a good life Javanese way. Ahh well, simply enjoy the melody. It was in Hotel Sahid Kusuma Solo, last second week of April.

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Habitat


Down to Seibu -the newest Jap's Dept. Store in town-, after the Sposa's Show in Dharmawangsa with an old friend. So many branded things seem neat in rack, cabinet, and well designed to offer. It makes visitors easy to browse, to see in a once over. Plus the well-manner keepers. All the effort to grab your wallet is shown persuasively.

Walking thru the aisle on an easy sunday evening, friend of mine confessing, "Feels like I am in my habitat! Don’t you feels good to walk thru so so much whatever-you-want goodies in spaces. Cool, right?” I don’t really listen to the words. People are so capable to spend some money, to enjoy life whatever however they want. Some people. While others dying to get their fortune. Remember someone posting an email quoted below. Good things, life’s treating me so well.
"When they have more than they need, they simply have a party, buy a car, television, or waste it on other meaningless items. They don't save it for their children's education and future like we do in Europe. What's the meaning of money if you don't know what to do with it? How is this country going to develop if nobody cares about their achievements but only about money?"

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Consistency that matter

So let’s talk about consistency (I won't runaway dear). I never can be that sure to be consistence in updating things here. I’d love to, you know. But sometimes, it’s not just like it is. I was in the road awhile. Even if I had times, seems like It takes more than just having things to tell you, to share. Just an excuse haha.

Some believe that being consistence is part of being professional (right, that attitude). It is reliability or harmonious uniformity of successive results or events, or agreement among things or parts. It describes something that is the same throughout. A foundation of virtue, once Francis Bacon said. Being regular will let others beforehand know what they expect.

Another thang. Is it right, being consistence also means being predictable? I myself, I don’t think I like the idea of being recognizable (in any sense), especially when people found out your pattern, your path. Sounds no more surprises, that plain. Then Oscar Wilde is so true when saying 'consistency is the last refuge of unimaginative'.

Now what is on your mind for this quoted Benjamin Disraelli?
"A consistent man believes in destiny, a capricious man in chance."

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5MONTHS after



Hey hey, Its been awhile not being around (blame it on me please, but don't hate me), many things happened and changed. Yeahh right, bla bla bla. Hahaha, just the way it is. Oh, but I still in a good mood, as ever. Last captured was with Cucut, Merry and Mba Di, dying to savour so many jap's meals.

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Summer Forever

Just sharing some freshness. I do LEMON. You know, Citron is swedish for lemon. Dijamin seger banget! Freshness 100% guaranteed.
(Thanks ya Bo!)

ABSOLUT CITRON MOJITO
2 parts ABSOLUT CITRON
1 part Lime Juice
Mint Leaves
Lime Slice
Sugar
>>Build in a rocks glass. Add mint, sugar and lime, muddle thoroughly. Add ice and fill with citron. Stir and garnish with lime wheel.

ABSOLUT CITRON AND LEMONADE
1 part ABSOLUT CITRON
3 parts Lemonade
Lemon Wedge
>>Build over ice cubes in a highball glass. Garnish with lemon wedge.

CREAMSICLE #4
1 oz Absolut® Citron vodka
2 oz orange juice
1 tsp grenadine syrup
>>Place about 4 ice cubes in a cocktail glass. Pour in Absolut Citron and fill the glass around three-quarters of the way with orange juice. Top off with grenadine, stir and serve.

THE ABBA
4 oz Absolut® Citron vodka
2 1/2 oz Sprite® soda
1 twist lime peel
ice cubes
>>Mix absolut citron with sprite, add a twist of lime, and stir.

VEGAS LEMON DROP MARTINI
1 1/2 oz Absolut® Citron vodka
1 tsp sugar
1/4 lemon
>>Slice the 1/4 lemon into two seperate wedges. Place in a cocktail shaker half-filled with ice cubes. Pour the Absolut Citron into the shaker, and add one teaspoon of sugar. Shake vigorously. Strain into a sugar-rimmed cocktail glass. Garnish with a lemon twist, and serve.

This Blunt is Not Beautiful

Have you ever look for an excuse to cover your folly? I did, last Thursday. I blundered on in my explanation during the interview with a director of a property company. It was a third interview, and they,– he was together with the marketing manager - want to know my view on their product, and above that on my understanding and principles on marketing business. Since this time were not really based on my experiences, I just responded with a blunt answers. I mean, I would not be happy and satisfied to get such an answer, if I were the interviewer. But I can't help myself.

Imagine like when getting a task to write an essay (even worse if I should do it in Dutch!) And I kept ahead till the times up, for about 30 minutes. Though there is no necessity to get this job, I feels so dull, really. What a clumsy attempt to pursue a smooth and confidence performance. Awkward, definitely! A second of incoherence of thought and speech. You know what I was thinking afterwards, wish I was drunk and could give a proof that I was not in a proper working brain ...…

Back to bizness



Enough wandering. If theres nothing change, i decide to get back to work this coming monday. Not in fish(y) business, picture was taken in Banyuwangi. This job would be closest up my alley. Based on writing jobs, not that free but having the chance to travel some (within region mainly), flexible and some other benefit. I can't deny, money talks on satisfactory level of working. Just another human here. With that, should i close my hand for other coming offer? I can't hardly promise.
Meanwhile, start writing is something else. I could use some fun to built my mood.

Do (not) trust your EYES















Somehow females genetic are stronger. Additional explanation. If you have a baby, which one you prefer: to have physically or spiritual psychologically after you?

First Hosting




Tom made it last Sunday. He told me months before about his visit. But I never imagine about meeting old friend in Jakarta, peculiarly because I am broke ( not as days when I met, to say the least). So it turned to be a warm ‘oh how are you’ theme talks, served with coffee ( ja hoor, geen kriek!). And yes, continue on bla-bla-bla. But business is business, even on Sunday afternoon. He was as ever, seducing me to have my own whatever business, since he does too, apart from his clothing company he works for.

Jakarta city tour, for sure. Don’t forget I am a good guide, and certainly making a tour considering the needs. Lucky enough, traffic on sunny Sunday was as mooth as silk to have an overview on property come around in town. Guess what, we blew the afternoon in Mangga Dua!

Sebotol Anggur


Ultah kemaren sih gue nggak ngerayain. Secara gue kan udah berusia diatas 21 tahun (sekadar pemberitahuan buat yang belom tahu ;), yang gue percaya sebagai memasuki usia orang bijak. Alasan aja sih emang. Ya gitu deh, nggak perlu ngerayain lah. Walaupun, mmm gue pengen ke negeri seberang, menikmati dinner and wine bareng temen-temen kongkow dan orang-orang tercinta. Akhirnya gue sms-sms temen-temen di Brussels, pakai nomer Brussels, ngajakin ketemuan hahahaha. So sad, gue kangen banget.

Yah paling tidak beberapa temen-temen --selain keluarga gue lah-- masih nyempetin nyelametin, mulai dari Linda, Ronald, Debra, Lidya, Hardi, Leo, Wina, Evi ... yah temen deket aja lah. Oh Diane Nichi juga. Lalu dari sono juga ada Donna, Bes & Pip, Filip, Amina, MC & Cedric, Conny, Rudy & Danie, Roy Jawa, Pak Gani, Myriam, Mellisa, Sjahrir Kenari, Bozena, Gini, SImone, Dimi, Dave, Alain Smeets, JOe. Thanks folk!

Sementara gue juga inget banyak temen dan sodara yang ultah bulan ini juga. Kalo mau disebut sih antara lain ada Nima, Hengky, Cun Ming, Niko, Linda, Nene aka Bu Sri, ... sapa lagi ya? Banyak lagi deh, lupa. Seklamat ya, semua! Wishing you all the best

Balik ngomongin soal wine, saking pengennya, akhirnya gue minum wine blanc 'nyuw jilen' hampir sebotol, jumat malam pertama di bulan puasa lalu. Nggak, nggak sampe jackpot lah, apalagi sampai ngambruk di jalanan, cuma sampai kepala enteng aja. Kalau cocktail sih, kadang-kadang ke Shangri-la sunday gitu, sambil ngadem dan ketemu Lina Shangri-la (aka Bukos) dkk.

And lately ...

Terus, tiga bulan terakhir juga tidak ada update di blog gue dll juga. Maklum kan sejak di Jakarta jarang pakai internet. Gue belom langganan internet di rumah sampai sekarang. Jadi palingan pakai Telkomnet ‘Instan’, yang tanpa ‘t’ itu akhirnya, atau pakai (ehm, thanks ya) langganannya internet temen gue, yang namanya nggak boleh disebarluaskan, biar gak banyak yang daftar jadi member, g-i-t-u.

Jarang banget sih online di rumah. Bukannya ngerasa nggak perlu, tapi lambatnya koneksi internet itu loh, bikin gue pengen kumat seketika. Hampir semua warnet, bahkan hotspot wifi macem di Starbugs itu juga lama banget! Lainnya ya mesti bayar pakai prepaid hotspot gitu. Ada sih yang bias gratis dan cepet banget connection-nya, cuma paling bisa pakai seminggu sekali, dan itu biasanya gue pakai buat harinya download file-file gede, buat update software ajalah. Kata Marcel, gue udah sakau, karena kebutuhan internet-super-cepat itu udah mulai nagih. Memang. Gara-gara gak ada internet cepet ini, gue juga jadi nggak ngikutin hi-lite video acara-acara tv amerika dan berita-berita local eropa lagi.

Tentang kerjaan, berbagai bidang gue coba daftar. Dengan semangat tanpa beban harus segera kerja, gue interview hampir tiap hari di berbagai kantor. Saking hafalnya, gue sampai bisa tutup mata ngerjain pertanyaan tentang kepribadian dan psycho-test nya kali. Dari hotel outsourcing, property, mining, sampai ke trading juga. Oh hahaha tepat seperti dugaan pencari kerja di Jakarta dan sekitarnya, gue juga pernah ‘nangkring’ di perushaan jasa investasi keuangan PT Maxg (gak usah disebut lengkap ya) yang banyak dicerca dengan tindak penipuan. Baik-baik aja sih gue disitu, dan nggak sempat ikutan berinvestasi dan bermain dengan locking dan free floating di meja trading di ujung itu. Justru gue sibuk ngeliatin kelakuan orang-orang yang ingin punya untung cepat, dan oh tentu, gue sibuk bertelepon gembira. Bagus lah. Gue jadi berkesempatan menyapa siapa-siapa, dan kenalan beberapa kawan baik di situ. Sampai saat tulisan ini di-upload, gue belom bener-bener terikat kontrak dengan suatu perusahaan tertentu.




Yang juga jadi kegiatan adalah nonton preview film-film baru di Jakarta, trus nonton I like Monday di Hard Rock café, kalau nggak lagi capek. Intinya sih sekalian ketemuan sama wartawan-wartawan hiburanlah, yang ternyata orang-orangnya sudah banyak ganti. Sempat juga nonton Konser final Indonesian Idol 2006 dan MTV Indonesia Movie Award 2006 di balai Kartini situ. Selebihnya melototin DVD film-film keren lama, dan sms-an atau ber-esia sama temen-temen baik.

Acara TV yang sempat mencuri perhatian belakangan ini ya DTK alias Dunia Tanpa Koma-nya Dian Sastro itu. Bayangkan! Diputernya sabtu malem jam 21, udah gitu break iklannya bisa rata-rata 30 slot iklan @15 sec! Cuma ini aja drama seri yang rada seru. Dibanding nonton Dian di Milyarder 3 Milyar, yang culun dan tampil layaknya ABG karbitan: komentar/pertanyaan basa-basi yang disampaikan cliché. Kalau Dian nggak cepet berbenah dan beradaptasi, kayaknya dia jadi terkesan tidak mampu menanggung tugas jadi presenter acara yang dinilai ber-otak. Mending main film aja kan, kesannya mahal, misterius dan eksklusif. Eh, jadi emosi pribadi hihihi. Maklum aja lah, gue kan ngefans Dian (maaf-maaf untuk fans Agnes Monica di Hospital ;)

Halo Jakarta! Hello Fellas!



Betul, akhirnya gue balik ke Jakarta Juli lalu. Jadi sampai sekarang udah sekitar tiga bulan menikmati keriaan Jakarta, dan sekitarnya. Asalnya sih gue balik untuk acara reuni keluarga, dan acaranya sudah kejadian di bulan Juli lalu (Seru lah, soalnya kan keluarga gede, dan udah lama gak ngumpul semua. Terakhir seinget gue sih sejak bokap meninggal tahun 1996). Tapi malah sekarang keterusan nggak balik ke luar lagi. Padahal surat-surat dan segala macem itu udah diurus. Walhasil, gue mengerahkan (dankje wel, Jeung!) Wina, Harri dan Angelica untuk ngurusin barang-barang gue yang tidak banyak tapi lumayan merepotkan itu.

Gue udah dapet visa lagi, valid entrance sampai November ini, dan bisa tinggal hingga xxx days. Cuma ya akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk tidak ‘jalan’ ke luar sekarang sekarang ini. Alasannya, I love Indonesia heheheh. “Oost west thuis best”, kata Bozena di comment ultah gue lalu. Selain itu Kenny juga sempat ngebujuk untuk gue cari gandengan di Indo aja, biar bisa settle down gitu. Trus mall-mall di Jakarta juga makin menjamur. Gue suka Senayan City!

Asal tahu aja, begitu nyampe di Jakarta, gue langsung udah diajak keliling dari mall ke mall sama Dansur yanag doyanannya Mango salad, dengan supirnya yang rada-rada itu. Asli welcoming home gitu deh. Sekarang lagi pengen tas calf skin Tod’s fall dan Bulgari. Emang sejak pulang juga udah menjadwal untuk ketemuan sama semua, ok, tepatnya sebagian besar teman teman lama. Belom sukses ketemu semua sih. Tapi ada juga yang belom dikontak malah tanpa sengaja ketemu, kayak Marcel dan Fifi, trus Anita juga di Plaza Semanggi. Jadi ya, langsung ngobrol aja sampai lupa duduk.


Sejak balik, gue juga udah menyusuri pantai Jawa dan Bali. Ke Semarang jajan-jajan di sana-sini dan foto-foto sunset di Marina juga. Makan di Surabaya, lalu ke Porong yang ternyata beneran berendam lumpur panas cap Lapindo Brantas. Gue juga ke Banyuwangi, maen di keluarganya Mb Dhya (matur nuwun ya!). Jalan-jalan dengan nuansa yang beda: lihat panggung 17an, foto-foto (I mean it) kuburan angker, ke pengasinan ikan, terus makan nasi apa ya… lupa namanya. Sangat menyenangkan, dan menenangkan. Berikutnya ya ke Bali sekalian, tinggal di tempat Pakdhe. Sempat nginep di tempatnya Greg juga. Betul, Greg Amsterdam itu. Di Bali sempat semingggu malah, nyobain tinggal dan hidup sebagai pendatang di Bali, dan sewa motor untuk ngider-ngider juga. Oh gue seneng banget (norak ya!?) denger orang ngomong santai pakai Perancis dan Belanda di sini, rasanya kayak déjavu aja.

Cerita lainnya nyusul ya.

Drama for your Mamma

It's somewhat raining on friday evening, cloudy and cold. Still have no update info on my planning to go home. No ticket, no letters for paper. Deadline is coming. Just got a mail, asking if I am planning to stay in this studio next year. Another mail, about if I will continue my weekend class next semester. Bills. So much effort to do for the exam, and no certain feeling. Headache (and co.) is getting better. What else? I guess those can give you slight idea on how I am at the moment, right?

Thanks for your kindly support so far, dear readers. Thanks for your comments and demands (yes YOU! you know who you are). As your question, remind you, my purpose to write a journal here is to let you follow my tracks, wherever I am in the world. To keep us in touch. If then some new friends joining here, then is a truly grace to me. I know that my writings sometimes (hopefully not that often) not understandable, but its honestly pure of pride and prejudice. No, joking. I mean, will you crying with me on my sadness, burning me on my jealousy? I just don't like to blow up a drama. But as my psychological test result mentioning, i still have 25% feeling and 13% instinct to follow against logic (halaaahhhh, alasan yang dicari cari banget!), which means, I still have an urge to push to express myself in whatever mood i am on. Therefore enjoy it as part of accepting me truly deeply madly wholy spoily ... Enough drama. I am not a drama queen. Well, may be a little. But then a very very little one. Oh, stop it! Let's watch other drama.

I am still laughing over and over again, whenever watching Michael impersonating Clay on American Idol 2006 finale, and even he seems very proud to get applause (Gila! Pede jaya banget loooo). Seconds later, he seems shocked to pee to see Clay really coming down the stage. Come on, look at his face, how he is so happy to sing together, well, in his own pitch. Cruel Ryan, clamming him up with a chair. TVgasm have the clip, click the image.

Intimacy is (not so) needed

It is all about the result I got not so long time ago. I am not mentioning any name of an institution, but the result comes from an institution who have concern on relationship issue. I did doing some psychological test for this. Click the image to see bigger, in Dutch though. The result is mainly about characters, dealing with conflicts, and relation. And I wonder on the relation section, which mentioning that I need not much emotional intimacy towards my partner. And she suggested to look for partner who will give me some more space, the one who have own thoughts and interests. If you are here, either its coincidents, or you know me well. Now, do you agree with the result?

Belom lama ini gue sempet suntuk ngerjain apa-apa, dan nggak tau gimana, akhirnya gue terjebak di bilik praktek seorang psikolog. Namanya Linda, orang Belanda, dan gue taksir sih umur sekitar 35-an. Kepalang tanggung, udah aja gue jawabin pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang, biasalah, pertanyaan dari psikolog 'kan standar tapi aneh-aneh gitu.

Singkat cerita, gue terima hasilnya. Lumayan banyak dan panjang lebar. Hasilnya tentang kepribadian, lalu kemampuan sosialisasi, kemampuan mengatasi konflik gitu, lalu tentang relasi. Nah, yang kayaknya pas banget untuk dikonsumsi rumpi-ers kayak you-you ini adalah tentang relasi. Udah ya, langsung highlight-nya aja dari gue (klik foto untuk ngelihat excerpt results dalam bahasa Belanda).

Nah katanya, kebutuhan kedekatan emosional gue pada pasangan itu katanya kurang. Lalu tipsnya adalah, untuk mencari pasangan yang mau memberi kebebasan yang gue perlu, dan yang bisa sibuk sendiri dengan segala aktifitas dan pikiran-pikiran dia. Mmmm menurut Jij (terutama buat elo-elo yang pernah jadi 'bahu untuk menangis'), gue gitu gak sih?

Ngelu tenan

Mbuh merga apa, tangi turu mau kok krasane sirahku ab(u)ote ra karuan. Malah kayane, kaya iklan levi's, sirahku dijiret dhadhung, trus ditarik kiwa tengen (rada overbodig ja). Tapi ya kira kira ngono kuwi. Mulane njur tak lumahke maneh. Njur kebablasen turu maning. Mau bengi aku ngombe antibiotik, sakdurunge turu.

Saiki wis ra patiyo mumet, mung yo pancen, yen mengo ki kudu dihayati ngono lho. Yen gerak cepet ki kok njur isi ndhas katut obah kabeh rasane... Jan jane, kabeh lelaran ora ana sing sepele. Ojo mbayangke kanker lan kanca kancane. Lah ya, mulane ki kok seneng banget yen isa sehat, ora gatelen, ora duwe borok, ra lara untu, ora mumet ...

Heartbreaking Dilemmas



More than 400 musicians play about 125 free concerts all over Brussels in a weekend! Yes dear, it's all free, for the second year in a row (mix of public subsidy and private sponsorship). Some big international names lined up, but the Brussels Jazz Marathon has always primarily been a showcase for Belgian jazz, which has an ever-growing international reputation. Either a packed club with an international audience or on a stage with Grand Place as a backdrop, the sensation is awesome.




There are four major open-air stages, and I choose St Catherine and Grand Place to enjoy maximum actions. It is about managing schedule actually, because this two location are close to each. Here comes my highlight. Yesterday was The Krazy Mess Groovers. Really oh-so-fun groove jazz band in retro-style outfits and somewhat choreography just like what boyband have. Then a cool funk Daniel Romeo Band really shaking jazz aficionados and tourist in Grand Place. The pictures above are Intrigo with Italian's Chicca Andriollo who throw a crystalclear-groove-catchy-vocal; and Marc Lelangue who bring Ray Charles songs on a rainy Brussels! Another groove wind was blowing thru Dominic Ntoumos So chilling, after the rain. After the outdoors, so many corners in town hosting smaller scale shows... You will not asking me where i went next, will you? Keep on jazzin'!


Exams coming



Due to my coming exams week, which will begin on June 12, probably there will be no posting here, for awhile. That is certainly my planning to prepare all things. I know, summer is begun. Yes, life is not fair. Especially if i think of those who have no more exams and deadlines coming. However, wish me luck this time. Till then, be good guys!

Sekadar pemberitahuan. Rencananya, sejak minggu ini saya akan mengeram kembali dalam kamar biru kesayangan. Apalagi kalau bukan untuk siap-siap ujian, yang akan dimulai nanti tanggal 12 Juni. Jadi harap maklum, kalau saya tak memunculkan tulisan atau foto di hari hari mendatang. Well, kecuali kalau emang saya ngerasa suntuk, dan melepas penat dengan bermaya-maya-sari-bhakti.

Nggak banyak ujian sih, lima doang. Soal-soal ujiannya juga ga banyak, per kuliah paling banyak 5 soal. Tapi pengalaman semester lalu, rata-rata jumlah soal hanya 3 biji saja. Sungguh tidak adil untuk belajar dalam kamar, sementara di luaran matahari makin mantap aja dari hari ke hari. Musim panas, maklum (Lihat foto deh, orang banyak nongkrong di Place de la Bourse kalau matahari bagus gini). Dan pikiran sejujurnya udah kemana-mana, karena tahu dong, rencananya saya mau ke Jakarta kelar ujian ini.

Waiting for later a.k.a Will see

A time of absence giving a chance to share.
The more when it is about good friends, great one.
But sometimes it comes not in the right mood to share.
I was hardly telling, just because I have no feelings to.
But by the time you read this, you know ...
good boy says:
how about you? did you meet nice people ?
a smile under the sun says:
not much to tell
The complete answer I can think of:
Many great and worth to dream for, but do not want me.
Someone cute and friendly, but I don't want more than just good friend.
Someone cute, nice and lovely, but not really what I want.
Someone just perfect, but I was too proud to ask for a number.
...

Zinneke Parade



This is the first weekend event this summer in Bruxelles. Zinneke is a process in which contemporary artistic endeavour goes hand in hand with local creativity. The cherry on the cake is the Zinneke Parade, a biennial event, (said) aspiring to be a contemporary, urban, hybrid, artistic parade in the heart of Brussels. I just watched part of it. Crap!
However look at this painted-face-parade.


A-game all odds

Was watching m:i:3 last week. A little bit different as not in the original series, this one have a stronger role on Cruise. His acting is cool, really. I like the scene where he run out and hitting the car while there's an explosion behind. Reviews are everywhere.

I'd like to tell about other movie I watch last Sunday. It is The Merchant of Venice. So much to talk about this movie version of one of Shakespeare's play, such as anti-semitism, mercy-revenge, romantic part of the movie, and the scenes of made up Venetia. But I would point it to my fave Al Pacino as Shylock, whose acting super as Jews. Awesome!

To me, it's about how do you play a game in life. Everyone have their own play, and each people play their own game. Some are related to other games. Other, choose to play under other people's rule. I have decide to play my own game, and I would not say it's a safe game. But I have it so far running. To tell you, mine is quite strategical without a certain assurance. I choose, I decide, one leads to another. Sometimes I need some reassurance, just as lately, and I hardly get it on hand. If I can just have some trump-card to bet. But I only have one thing to go: nothing but win.


© sonyclassics

Shylock: He hath disgraced me, and hindered me half a million, laughed at my losses, mocked at my gains, scorned my nation, thwarted my bargains, cooled my friends, heated mine enemies; and what's his reason? I am a Jew.

Shylock: I am a Jew. Hath not a Jew eyes? hath not a Jew hands, organs, dimensions, senses, affections, passions? fed with the same food, hurt with the same weapons, subject to the same diseases, healed by the same means, warmed and cooled by the same winter and summer, as a Christian is? If you prick us, do we not bleed? if you tickle us, do we not laugh? if you poison us, do we not die? and if you wrong us, shall we not revenge? If we are like you in the rest, we will resemble you in that.

Shylock: If a Jew wrong a Christian, what is his humility? Revenge. If a Christian wrong a Jew, what should his sufferance be by Christian example? Why, revenge. The villany you teach me, I will execute, and it shall go hard but I will better the instruction.

Mandi Matahari

In a nutshel: if i could just be a professional tourist ...

Benar-benar tantangan tersendiri untuk mau dan bisa tetap berdiam di rumah dan belajar di hari-hari seperti ini. Bayangkan, di luar matahari bersinar cantik, teras-teras cafe seputar St. Gery (juga di tempat mangkal lain) dipadati banyak orang yang menikmati semilir angin dan hangatnya matahari 'summer', sambil menikmati aneka minuman segar dan bercengkerama bersama relasi ataupun kawan-kawan. Mau tak mau saya 'harus' melonggarkan niatan untuk menjalani kesibukan menjelang weekend, untuk bersantai di luar. Saya kira, ini akan menjadi suatu bentuk penyalahgunaan keindahan dan alam kalau saya tetap diam di dalam kamar.

Saya percaya, anda akan setuju dengan tekad akal sehat saya untuk melonggarkan program kedisiplinan akhir pekan ini. Kalaupun anda tak setuju, ... ah saya hanya manusia belaka yang tak kuasa menolak kenikmatan hari. (Halaaahhh alesan banget ya bo, emang mau nongkrong aja ...)

I am home again, getting dark outside. And I had a great time this afternoon. Beer drinking under the sun (hitam, siapa takut?), watching people, and it was with Benoit. Feels like years not enjoying such an afternoon. Mainly because of we have the same understanding on what to talk about on such occasion. Seems everybody's outside these days, and its weekend! People dress lightly, and smiling. Good news everywhere. Is it my first summer in Europe? I don't think so. But it feels really different.

Heart-break Resistance

If you read something about mending a broken heart, probably it is from a love doctor's corner or female lifestyle magazine such as Cosmopolitan etc. I never read one from a man's magazine so far. While some girlfriends telling, that they were suggested to 'take it as a man'. Oh how's that?

Do men have feelings, emotion? I guess so. But then why comes up such a suggestion? Men are not sensitive, too careless, never showing their emotion, nor even sharing their real feeling, some said. I didn't do any survey on men's feeling or things like that. I am not working on that subject, yet, at least. But if you ask me, I would just answer this.

One day I had to deal with a thing called 'broken heart'. I would say I had to lost the one I most enjoy, after getting together for about a year. It was with someone I would consider as my day and night. Till today I still have some contact with. Sure, not as close as when we were together. I need to, I decide it. I don't hate this, though at that moment it felt betrayed. Why that feeling? Because I was ready to step further, to settle down with, but it turns to be unequal in other part. Yes, coincidentally I found my ex simply being unfaithful.

Here are three things i did:
1. Changing my way of thinking. I never planned to meet someone to love, and most of all, I always keep this on mind: there will always an end of a beginning. So I said, I am fine alone, and I will be just fine. If I was changing at that period, because I suddenly had to change things, not that I was upset or else (oh well, I really was upset and confused for sure!) The point is, why should I force to get along, if we have a different goals in life, or different main preference and we could not tolerate anymore. In my case, I guess a man have some more ego. There's always other, or if you're gone, I will find other.
2. Give it a time to calm down. Sure there are times where I have to deal with our past habits, conversations, activities. I was intensely, emotionally deep-attached. I was relaxing, drinking (right, I can use some drink now *grin*), meeting friends (yang curhat abeees gitu loh). Best friends, wherever they are, are important.
3. Life goes on. I didn't threw things related to my ex. I still remember most of things. However we live in the same world, same city, enjoying places that we love to go etc. I can not and shall not change this. Time will heal. As for now, the memories are there, but I prefer not to talk about it.

After awhile, I realize I had many other experiences. Nobody's perfect, I know and that's fine. If I choose someone, that's just because I decide, not because of bla-bla-bla. And as ever after, I do not plan to fall again in this coming days or months, till I don't know when. Till love found me. Oh but wait, I had another crush yesterday *grin*. Unfortunately I forgot to exchange contacts. Care to share, just drop a line here.

Behind an opera


© Ruth Walz, more

1. Life is about the chance, and these days I got the chances to enjoy things before me. So here I am.
2. I could only listen, when my sister, brother, back home after watching concerts (I want Sheila Majid!), or musicals such as Oliver Twist, West Side Stories ... I was a kid of 9 I guess.
3. Last year I got the 'revelation' to watch such show, but never get the chance to watch together.
4. I like almost whatever live performance, and so far I went to today's one. Now, lately to be exact, I choose something classics. More than just a soprano singing on stage.
5. They played very dramatic orchestra, took me out of senses, to experience the moment. It's not improvisation, modern, popular music. Its something, I would say sophisticated. (I was watching Russian opera Boris Godounov, last Thursday)
6. It's good to be different. Most people in opera house are old, distinguished, couples, members. And I feels fun&fabulous to be not of the above.
7. There can be such blessing in disguise in such event. I met old friend, new friend.

Indo corner



There are two Indonesian restaurants in Brussels, and so far I only visits the closest in St. Catherine. Last Friday I was here too, with Reine and Yunus. The main reason is that Reine miss to eat Indonesian food (oh right, just after 2 weeks not eating rice!) Last night i found pics from last year. The picture above was from the VT-dinner we have last year, 5 August 2005 to be exact. I remember, Meddi's style caught our attention. Instead of seeing him last week, there was a new boy there, Nugi. The rest was minding our after-3-years-chit-chat.

It's 'Reine' Man




Reine. We meet again after three years. The same but different.
The keywords are surprise, best friend, fun, cheerful, and lovely day.

If a picture tells thousands words ...

Easter break over

Hi all, after Easter still with me in Brussels. Happy Easter to you! How are you? Long weekend there, and we are here having an Easter holiday for 2 weeks. I am not going anywhere, but enjoying spring in the city. I got 5 eggs from 7 on Romeo's easter game. Intermezzo. So, I have just came home from Gillian's VT's with Holy Leo (as he wants to be known as). That Scots lady was organizing an open house, she's moving to Brussels recently.

While yesterday I was with Angelica, for another heart to heart afternoon tea. Girls. Harri was not showing up, since he still in Aachen. Will we all three live together next semester? Only God knows. I wish. She wants Kriek lindemanns (!?) while I need salad, for health sake. We were in Exki and La Beccase.

Saturday were in Belga Queen lounge bar. I will definitely be there again. Great choice to chill out, with soft jazz atmosphere. Yes, its more expensive than average. But they have bountiful choices to drink all night, definitely. Champagne is neutral and safe choice. Please note, Beginning this Saturday I try my best to eat healthy whenever possible. It means less red meat, minimizing deep fried food, and more to veggies. Sweets and desserts are sustainable. Cafe Metropole and Cheese cake abide as easy-cozy choice. Home sweet home in Brussels.

Talking about home, I took shots of anything at home, practicing and exercising on macro. I use manual focusing, utilizing standard lens (oh, I wish I could buy macro lens soon!). It's never really sharp. And looking at the results, I wonder, is it my instable hands or my eye-glasses which need some adjustment? Same things happened back in 1995, but that time I decided to quit with this hobby. Soon, my eyes need to be controled.

Another change on iTunes preference. I was watching V for Vendetta and Danzel Washington's Inside Man. Feels the wig is not really fit to V, just strange. Not that macho. I don't know why suddenly there is A.R Rahman's Chaiyya Chaiyya as soundtrack, opening and closing tunes on Inside Man. I mean, as far as I notice the movie have nothing to do with India, Hindi, or anything related. That exotic blues beat giving the spirit however. I knew this song well since Bombay Dream of Andrew Lloyd Weber. So these days Hindi's sounds surround my lounge, chaiyya chaiyya ...

Own Dream

Ev'ry man has his own special dream
And your dream's just about to come true.
Life's not as bad as it may seem
If you open your eyes to what's in front of you!
...

All you've got to do is dream...
All you've got to do is dream...
All you've got to do is dream!
Just dream and baby,
We'll be there!
We'll be there!
We'll be there!

© dreamgirls

Indo Streaming

Browsing on indonesians streaming sources lately, I would recommend Liputan 6 and Metro TV for update info on daily Indonesians. For online radio stations, there are Hardrock FM and Cosmopolitan.
Rabbi Shmuley Boteach said, the mother of fear in life is fear of insignifican. And the greatest gift in life he said is to overcome our fear. Ngeliat dia gue jadi inget Aa Gym. Pa kabar A'? About me, i never pray in Dutch so far, not even for Our Father Prayer! Below i grab another verse, in Dutch.

Feeling's Lucky


© Johan Jacobs, more

Are you feelings lucky? Did you recall any luck in your past? My colleague at work told me that i am, Leo told me that too, while Benoit trying to be more objective by saying i had some luck. I dont know what's their consideration. Come saprei? They're just looking at my daily, I guess. But if you ask me, i would think i am. I am not going to write down my reason here, just too many bla-bla-bla, though you may ask. It's not always getting what i want, but i would say so. In any sense. I am still heading the long long road till today, passing several crossroads lately. I dont think i will get settled down soon. Or, let say, i don't want it yet to happen, at this moment. What about you, do you think youre lucky enough? What kind of luck, you can interprete youself as you pleased. Enough.

My preference is getting older perhaps, or wisely more into culture they said. Smile. Instead of getting quiet home, my nights this week getting hype again. It was Il Barbiere di Siviglia. Right, finally i make it smoothly. The singer were not 'wow', but good. They combine with some slapstick's act. Well, its always work. And i found it fine, to make the whole shows lighter. Very entertaining production, my big applause on stage production, and lighting. Its not a long show, about 2 hours 30 i think. And you know what, i dont mind to watch opera more often, even if i have to go alone. Smile. I had a great time.

And last night I ate fish in Sister Act, and ended up in Loui@Conrad for cocktails and some more chat with Benoit. Right, quite unusual that my 'lost friend' Benoit's free from his office, nor travelling, and his wife was visiting her parent. Another were: Arcadi cafe in arenberg, revisited for their many choices of toothsome cakes. Forget the waiters who were confused theirself (no changed on the second visit!) but friendly, oh you have to try it! Le Tapas Bar is also great and cozy in terracota's wall with hangin' smoked ducks(!?) and most times full with young crowds (if its matter to you). Not cheap, with no real dress code, but its just comfortable for a long chit-chat. A friend from England told me most jokingly, most British found Brussels is a boring city. I could not agree more, compare to many other tourist destination around. But i feels home here.

Recently added on my iTunes: Andrea Bocelli's Amore, Herbert's Von Karajan's Don Giovanni, Karyn White, Jamie Cullum's Catching tales, and Leo give me Giorgia's Come Saprei! Like it. Thanks pal!




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